time flies... i really missed those days... how in the hell could i be so stupid and mades all those wrong turns in my life.. i wish that everything can just stop for 1 hour and let me take a breather... y am i the person i am today... y am i not the person i am ytd?will i be the same person i am today tomorrow?on the surface.. i missed u so... ytd come to think of it i doesnt really matter to me anymore... the facade?parady?u keep appearing on my mind constantly.. yet i cant seem to feel anything except for this emptiness... hungry? maybe. yet, wad do i hunger for? it's definately not food. and when i can least expect. i got this urge.. dun u think that love is a kind or drug? u get high on ur hormones. and feel the pain aft enjoyment? is that true? i dunno, u tell me. nothing is forever, yet why does feel like eternal in this persiod of time. wad is it that flows through my neurons to my brain? why can i feel the things that are meaning less yet why cant i feel the feeling that i want to? why can i remember all this things so vividly, why am i blessed with such memories? am i blessed? or is a cursed? who knows. or rather, who cares? to me now the world means nothing. maybe someday someone will somehow warm my heart once more..
i guess all this can be describe into be lonely..
well.. as if u cared... i wished for u to be happy. merry christmas.
bye.

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