babysainT
Saturday, August 26, 2006
12:42 AM

In the monopoly for the anomaly, in order for all to be in harmony, do not procrastinate my authority for this impossibility, face it, its reality.

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Tuesday, August 22, 2006
11:10 PM

I wept coz I had no shoes, unit I saw a man who had no feet. think again if you feels tat the whole word is against you and feels like giving up there's always someone out there whose is worse then you. this was smth a close person to me wrote. true isnt it? b4 u think of youself, open ur eyes and look ard. haha as long dun piak can liao. haha sian

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Monday, August 21, 2006
2:54 AM

the next song on the piano is for you.and it will my last.maybe someday,someone will understand.

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Sunday, August 20, 2006
12:17 PM

today i pick my stand.the path i've chosen. alone i shall walk.into the darkness that falls behind my every footstep.no time no think nor stop.rest is just another word in the dictionary.what keeps me going on is the fear.not the fear of dying nor losing.but the fear of falling down and....PIAK


hahaha sian... write poem den end with piak... damn duhh lor... haha... but its true. this is the path that im walking alone. shrouded in darkness. except for the piak part la... so lame lor... wan act cool and act cute haha...plssSS...haha

sian wed 1 mroe paper den fri 1 more paper den go drinking den eat sushi... i dun mind doing this everyday... LOOKING FOR SPONSORS. haha

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Friday, August 18, 2006
1:30 AM

some shit essay me and kx wrote and that shit faced teacher of mine said it was shit.i wanted to shit on my pants but i had no shit, and my pants was shitless at the end of the day. what a shitty day for the shitty pple in the shitty place.every wondered how we even got into this shit and most importantly is how to get the shit out?!?! asshole.

The recent case of Huang Na murder reveal a disturbing side of human nature that human nature- tends to take advantage of those who are weak, vulnerable or powerless. Do you agree with this statement?


Yes, I do agree.

When the case was first made known to the public, everyone assumed that it was just another murder case, but what made it big was the insights of a criminal’s mind.

People tend to take advantage of others who dare not speak up.
For example, in work place, most people would push their work to those who dare not speak up while are afraid of those who are fierce. Most workers tend to slack when their bosses or supervisors are nice people while they will work harder when their bosses or supervisors are fierce. Discipline masters in schools must also be fierce in front of the students while they might not be in real life.

Humans are afraid of bullies, yet take advantages of people who are weaker than them.
When you see someone bullying another person, would you stand up against him? No. why? Because you are afraid of getting into trouble yourself.

But if some one smaller than you pick a fight and you definitely win the fight due to the fact that he doesn’t have a gang and stuff would you fight him? Yes would be the answer in most cases.

Take the recent Huang Na case for example. Why would that guy pick on a 10 year old girl whose body is not even matured instead of a fully grown lady? Probably because the girl was a much easier target compared to the lady. This shows us how humans take advantages of people weaker than them.

From an outsider's view, most people would just think that Huang Na’s murder case was caused due to the fact that the murderer is mentally challenged. However, upon deeper consideration, that guy might have done just what others wanted to do yet was afraid of the law. Do you think that Singapore will be a peaceful place without police? No, people will go robbing banks for money if police and laws did not exist. And why did they do that? Probably because they desire more money? Humans have no limits to their greed, lust and stuff. There is never an ending to greed because you would forever have a desire for more. Greed and desire is the root of the problems in most humans as people would tend to their emotion to thinking for them.

To the extend in which humanity would do for money is amazingly unbelievable. They could chop off the hands and legs of a fellow human being and leave them on the streets to beg for money and at the end of the day, they would take away the money that guy begged just to satisfy their need for money, yet they never thought of how that person feels having their limbs chop off while the people around him just throw money onto his bowl in order to feel less guilty. But have you thought about what happens if nobody donated any money to that poor soul? If he had received no donations at the end of the day, he would have probably spent the night starving. People in Africa are starving to death yet here in Singapore, we see people wasting food all the time, while asked to donate for the needy, people would shrink away from the sight of donating. Humans would rather live their life avoiding guiltiness than stand up to face it.

Life is precious yet most humans would go through all means to satisfy their desires.

Probably because humans go for looks. Yet it isn't the choice of a soul to choose when, where and what they are born with.

Everyone is unique. Unlike other species on earth which are more than happy just to eat and sleep everyday, humans seek misery, and to some extent, there are those that find pleasure in other’s pain. Maybe it’s the emotions humans were born with which is far too much for humans to handle.

It is indeed true that humans are one of the most highly intelligent species throughout the world yet what the murderer had done in this case was deemed humane? These are just some examples how we humans think and work.

When we see someone commit a crime, we naturally think that it is to achieve things that they might not have. Though this might be true to a certain extent, onlookers like us have barely scratched the surface of understanding their mentality.

In the mind of a murderer, does it mean that killing someone is due to extreme hatred to that person? I doubt so. There are many reasons behind it that we might never think of, such as insecurity, fetishes or maybe to them it’s an urge.

Where does this urge come from, and why is so powerful? If we all experienced this urge, would we be able to resist?

Would it be genetic, hormonal, biological, or cultural conditioning? Do serial killers have any control over their desires? We all experience rage and inappropriate sexual instincts, yet we have some sort of internal cage that keeps our inner monsters locked up. Call it morality or social programming, these internal blockades have long since been trampled down in the psychopathic killer. Not only have they let loose the monster within, they are virtual slaves to its beastly appetites.

The killer most probably had hidden emotions that he was not able to bring out due to the society, to the point that these emotions urges to get out and take over him. Now, his emotions are controlling him. No longer being able to think straight, words and actions meted out are feelings and desires that were once being locked away.

Maybe once being a prey to other’s abuse, inner rage or anger can no longer be kept aside. Something must be done, but not in the appropriate manner. It is possible that once before, in the eyes of others, weak, vulnerable or powerless. Once not able to control oneself anymore, humans at that point will pass on such actions to the weak, vulnerable or powerless. And just by doing so, a sense of power; superiority sets in, making one feel better about them self, and in this case, going overboard. Humans naturally act on impulse, using emotion do the thinking for them, never bothering about the consequences until faced with it.

Life is a rat race. Getting ahead by whatever means is a priority in today’s world. We try means and way to be better than the weak, vulnerable or powerless, while not wanting to challenge those on top of us fearing that we might lose out.

Lastly, in the world today, lets be realistic, its is a dog eat dog situation out there. Not wanting to improve oneself or attaining superiority will only result in being an outcast. The world is ever so changing, for the better, for the worse. It all depends on the mentality of each and every individual, but nevertheless; we all have something in common, and people all desire to be on top of everyone else. Even though it is taking advantage of the weak, vulnerable or powerless, as long as we see a chance to use it against them for our own benefits, people will do it, and even for some people, to the extent of not caring if it is morally right just for the sake of achieving their goals. Although it is a disturbing side of human nature, we live with it our entire life, even showing these behaviors without knowing it.

Let’s put it in a few simple words, it is who we are and what we are capable of doing.

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Thursday, August 17, 2006
12:11 PM

there's something seriously wrong... haha im sick... these 2 weeks exam week... and i nvr study... wth... cant even look at the page for 1 min b4 closing the book and day dream liao... omg man...i wan to go sentosa again splash splash again... den get all wet and drink gin this time haha.. splash splash haha.... i sound like a kid... wth... there's too many things in my head heard of the song journey? sometimes it feel like no one understands, i dont even know why i do the things i do.. well i guess right now thats how i'm feeling? but in the end of the day who cares? right now, my world is just black and white. i just wan to tell her that im sorry. i shall not further explain. my head hurts, i really appreciate what i have but sometimes it feel that none of them are of use to me.


ps. i just wan to say sorry, if you know who u are.

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Saturday, August 12, 2006
12:41 AM

sorry to kx for being so moody for th epast 2 weeks... dint had much of slp...really sorry... haha... ok i really think that im gonna die for exams lor... at least gimmi a marginal pass den next sem den chiong like crazy liao... its time to stop playing ard and study... sound abit no life right? but i really dunno how to go thru this lor.. too many things on my mind.. sometimes i really miss daddy david's teaching... help me with all sorts of trouble... and i rmb the 2 words that really hit the spot..GROW UP! haha but true enough...i wonder if the world is every so lonely? is it just me? or does everyone feel the same way too? but come to think of it, i really gotta thank kx too, tolerating me these few weeks and smile. and thanks for sentosa too... really made my day

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Wednesday, August 09, 2006
11:53 PM

pice of love lighter on the left. automatik fossil on the right.

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11:34 PM






















i reall gotta thank you guys for making the 2 days so special... and honestly thanx febs for remembering haha... ok so as for george this is the pic... on the right... sentosa was fun, liangwei so gundu go into water with phone and wallet. den we really drank alot and had like jap food? haha. and i cant believe that pearlyn really go get black nail polish haha... ok sian its like exactly 1 more week till exam starts and i think i will fail. den have to go for fmr den sian.. siansiansian...haha GIN MARTINI ROX! den at night was like at liquid kitchen den me and kaixiong no nid menu de... regular there liao haha

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Saturday, August 05, 2006
2:45 AM


today was erm.unexpected!! ok... dint slp the night b4 so woke up like 1 hr late for class den end up skip and went mac eat breakfast... den went home also cant slp so pple please bear with me till monday if im cranky. so the day went by suppose to meet andre at orchard den i late, sorry, den i meet him at bugis. den we went seoul garden to makan. "class gathering", more then half the class was there, so was like so long no see them den talk cock sing song play mahjong lor. den i told george that i had smth on so gotta leave early den he say wanna take foto den ask me wait till 915 and i said ok since there were still pple eating. and the unknown grp of pple at the back of us like 20 of them had us to disturb them. so when i wanted to leave, dre and crys took out a birthday and i thought whose birthday so we sing birthday song, and i stop when i heard my name. OMG LOR so shocking thanx guy love you lots, u all really caught me off guard lor, i so malu still sing first half of hpy bdae. den we ate cake and i was so surprised that i got presents, love you guys even more and to think that u all rmb me bdae so touching lor. so aft that i went to watch dragon tiger gate with kaixiong den we went liquid kitchen to go drink. haha den was like none of us get high?thanx kaisiong go watch movie with me. and sorry for disturbing u through out the show.



and to Crystal, Andre, George, Lifeng, Zoe and Zhang Shuang i really love you the most man, made my dae so special, haha and thanx.

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